Reading my fellow classmates rough draft

I gotta say, thank goodness I am not a teacher.  All that reading and no pictures?  Who does that these days.  As my husband would say "can't you read it to me?", or my favorite "isn't there a movie we could watch instead of reading?". 

Seriously,  I have read a few (or tried) of my classmates papers.  But of course it's an assignment so we have to do it.  I found it hard to give criticism that was usable.  I am not one who like to "rock the boat".  I would rather make lite of the situation and move on. 

Because of the way my brain works, I now have some more of what I call "useless knowledge" stuck in my head.  If I actually had to learn it, there's now way it would get stuck.  But what am I going to do?  I can't reboot myself.  Or can I? 

I know what you're thinking.  I need serious mental help.  Oh, trust me.  I am in therapy, and she hates it when I try to joke my way through our session.  But jokes on her.  All I have to do is get her started talking about her husband and I'm off the hook.  She does all the talking and I just get to listen.  There are something that a person just shouldn't know about their therapist....

After the holiday...

Ok, sitting on the couch watching tv with my daughter.  I have a ton of things to do and to finish (my paper for school - most important).  However, I can't seem to wrap my head around anything.  I have it all in my head it just won't "unwrap" on paper. 
I am trying not to sink any further into my stupid depression.  Yet, I find myself feeling it.  One of my major issues is my weight.  I can't seem to get my butt off the couch to do anything about it.  Maybe I should utilize my membership to the YMCA.  But I don't want to go alone.  Who likes to do things alone?

The last 6 weeks of my life....

as a college student has been rather interesting.  I have had my ups and downs.  From the usual stress of juggling life and school.  Trying to decided if I should go get a part time job or not.  Wait! I actually got a job, and for 3 days prior to starting I spent those days having anxiety attaches.  How was I going to balance, mother, wife, student and part-time employee?  After so serious conversation with my self, I decided, at that time, a part time job wasn't the answer.  I think that having "flex" seminars was also something else I was so worried about.  But know that I am aware of how these work, I think I can handle a little job. 
I have also struggled this whole college thing.  Am I only kidding myself?  Can I really do this?  Can I actually get through school and then go on and get a job?  Then to be successful at the job?  Is becoming a nutritionist really what I want to be when I grow up?  Is 39 a good age to be a grown up (that's the age I will be when I, fingers crossed, graduate)?
Oh, the stress!!!!!!

Writing at Kaplan

From what I know I am a somewhat organized freestyle writer.  I have done bullet points on the key ideas that popped into my head.  I have taken on the subject of body image and self esteem in adolescent males.  Not an easy topic.  But I am hoping to learn something so that I can help my son.  I might help myself along the way.  I know I have low self esteem.  I think it comes from moving to much as  a kid and never fitting into any "group".  I blame my parents.  I blame them for a lot.  So maybe having to grow up at 14 had something to do with it.  See, my brother died when I was 14 and he was 21.  Accidental self inflicted gun shot.  Maybe it has something to do with my parents never supporting me in everything since I have graduated high school (14 yrs ago). 
So building self esteem in my son, and any one else I can help.  Nothing hurts more then knowing that I could have done something to "break" a child.  The stress!!!!

Citing and Plagiarism

Based on what I have learnt for my many of months attending Kaplan, plagiarism is very bad.Unfortunately it probably happens way to much, and people go unaware of this very bad thing.  It's not something that I think many people do intentionally. 
Thus the reason for citing.  We have to cite the work of others in our papers so that we can give credit were credit is due.  Nothing would be worse then finding out that after you put so much hard work, sweat and tears into a research paper, and then someone else comes along and takes credit for it.  I would probably break down and cry.  Worse would be the person who writes a paper and finds out after the fact they didn't cite their sources and very bad things happened to them (bad grades, or worse, failed the class). 
Now it comes down to knowing how to cite, who to cite, and when to cite.   The stress.....

My final project topic for College Comp 2.

I found this to be extremely difficult to narrow down a topic for this class.  But I think I found something that I can relate to.  Ready?  Body Images in today's youth.  Basically, arguing that a parents own body image will reflect in their own kid.  I think it will be interesting.  We all know that kids are just like little sponges.  They absorb everything we say (even when we whisper), and then spit it out, usually when the timing is all wrong. 
Looks like I have some more research to do and a thesis to write. 
Wish me luck.

Childhood Obesity

This morning on Good Morning America they did a news report about childhood obesity, and the increasing epidemic.  I truly want to know when American's are going to wake up.  When are people wake up?  Today's news story was stating how many of today's mothers are putting their children on diets.  Going out of their way to make sure their children don't become overweight.  Why?  Why would we go to such extremes?  I can answer that.  The media today has created a "skinny world".  Placing body image on the top of our "mommy minds".  At least that's how my "mommy mind" works.  I want to live in "skinny world".  But do I really?  I actually want to be thin AND healthy.  To be able to go shopping and buy something that will look good.  To not have my stomach, look like I am 5 months pregnant (oh, the image I just created). 

Crap, now I gotta go hit the treadmill. 

Going to the doctor

Went to the doctor today.  Tired of being fat and wanted my thyroid tested.  Anywho, gotta love it when the Dr and the nurse tells you that they don't believe you when you tell them you've been working out for 3 mounts.  Why don't they believe you?  Because according to their records you've gain 14 pounds since your last visit.  OMG!  What could be more depressing?  Now I need anti-depressants to get me thru the days. 
But my thyroid is normal, so I can't use that as an excuse.  Ugh.  So frustrating.  Of course the trainer says that he can see a difference in my body.  Which I could see a big difference.  If my stomach would go away, I would be so happy. 

So tomorrow I step up my cardio and see where that gets me.  I have my eating under control.  See, I can prove it.  Only one slice of pizza tonight, instead of the normal 3.  Big pat on the back for me. 
Oh, and I am so tired of the 8 yr. old "jiggling" my belly.  It's so not funny.  Who does that to their mother? 

Maybe I figured....

out how to do this?  Could it be? 

11/14/10 Sunday

I would have never thought that I would actually be "blogging".  This is awesome.  If someone had told me back in high school (oh, so many years ago), that I would be communicating with people using a computer, and being able to find anything in the world with just a few simple key strokes, I would have laughed (ha ha!). 

I can't wait to see where this class is going to take us.